disco

thats right

straight up disco status.

blue lightning bolt

i want one every day

hahaha

i miss

my freidns that dont go to my school...
like lexi and annuh and taylor.
im so super excited cuz annuh is gonna mail me stuff :D
i LOVEEEE getting things in the mail.

hmm so i was a little surprised to hear that erica is talking to chris pupo.......
.......
thats all i have to say about that one.

anywhooo....
im learning alot about myself and my friends and everything
and its all because im grounded and have therapy and stuff.
im actually kinda glad. everything happens for a reason.

hmm soo its starting to be winter soon...
and i want a boy.
haha

im ready to go winter shopping!!!

invisible

sometimes i feel like i am.
like i just sit and watch and it doesnt matter that im there. in fact its kind of like im not there. its interesting, i dont actually hate it because i like to observe people. it gives me time to think about things. it feels like i can freeze time for myself while it just keeps going for other people.

i cant wait to go to college and meet new people...maybe there ill be visible.
hah i feel like that true life crap " you think you know..but you have no idea".

anyways...today was fun a ton of fun for the most part.
the bands were pretty good..people showed up.. we raised money.
yay!!!
and i had fun with the people i was with.... it was nice.
dancing at the end was the best :D haha




hmm man o man im going to have a lot to tell my therapist.
if you only knew.

create a voice

make a difference.


TODAY IS THE SAVE DARFUR BENEFIT CONCERT!!!!


im pretty excited.
it actually happened!!!





i hope it goes well.
<3

idol

kk so im obsessed with this model/dj Leigh Lezark

i kinda wanna do my hair all black like hers...gahhh shes so beautiful.
hmm oh im gonna save my next 2 paychecks so in a month i can go shopping for new clothes
because i need a ton of new clothes.
i hate this..i buy things and im happy with them for about a month then i feel like i dont like anything i own. jfklasdjalfjas :/ i wish i had enough money to buy way nice things and be super stylish.
anywho some things i want to buy :
black coat
black boots
cute tights
a few skirts
new belts
nice sweaters
more leggings
black skinny jeans
more shirts.
yeeeeeeeep.

senior year so far

ok sooo...so much has happened in the past few weeks so ill catch you up on it all
heres the short version:

i had a kickback and got super drunk and had a ton of fun...
well the week that my parents came back home they found out and then my mom told my dad to go through my room and he found weed... so i got sick yelled at and grounded for life.
my parents made me get a therapist because im a "rebelling" teen. OH GEEZ.
so i cant go out anywhere and i cant have friends over and they made me delete my myspace. so no life for me.
so thats that...
anyways i have a new crush on this guy thomas thats at my work...but he has a girlfriend.
sad times...
oh and now its time to start thinking about college and im SO not ready... my parents will only pay if i go to Cal state fullerton, cal polly, mt.sac, or fullerton jc. which SUCKS. can you say manipulation?! geez.
but i set up an interview with fidm anyways :D haha
and im gonna go visit cal state long beach...id really like to go there :]
im going to get my way with this. im determined to.

anyways thats my first post.
the end.